My Social Life or Lack There Of Before Losing Weight

If gym class was a disaster, my social life in general was horrific. Not only was I a nerd, but I was also the fat kid. Yea I had a few friends, but I was picked on constantly. I became so accustomed to the ritual of getting made fun of for being obeses, that I grew a thick skin and let everything roll of my back. I think this is what kept me sane. This avoidance technique is also preventing me from remembering a lot of my experiences as a fat person. I never let the insults bother me as a young kid and therefore rarely stored them in my memory. When I was a kid I thought this is what the rest of my life was going to be life. I had nightmares about growing up alone and not getting married (granted I do not even have a girlfriend right now, but I am not too worried anymore). Aside from a few little stories that left a lasting mark, there is little I cared to remember when I was younger and fat.

What I do remember besides the fact that I got picked on is the general lack of attention paid to me by girls. I mean I had a few friends that were girls, but you know what I am talking about. Girls were not interested in me as someone they would date. I became a very shy kid who lacked almost all confidence. Unfortunately, my experiences as a kid still affect me today. My confidence has grown exponentially, but there is still part of me that thinks like I did when I used to be fat. When I figure out how to overcome this I will let you know.

Now that I think about it, I was able to lose the weight, but there are some things that I will never be able to get back. I am 18 years old and I have essentially lived two lives already. I have been through the fat Aaron and not I am the thin Aaron. Two completely different people, two completely different, well almost everything.

I have sidetracked a little, but the point is that my life as a fat kid was basically hell and I was able to keep my head a float knowing that I was a smart kid and by some miracle I was able to repel the verbal abuse. My social life was pathetic when I was obese and I think that is one major reason that I decided to grab the bull by the horns and lose weight. It was not until I lost weight that I asked a girl out, and my first real girlfriend was after I lost weight. I started late, and I regret the mistakes I made, but guess what, I have lost the weight and I am prepared to make up for lost time.